Not My Fault,Really

(I come from a remote village,where many villagers consider it a taboo that a man be present when a woman is giving birth to a child,thinking that may bring misfortunes to their families.)

THE thick black cloud has covered the sky,making the daytime like dark.Such weather reminds me of an unforgettable experience of last summer holiday.

That too was a gloomy day.I was dozing over a stupid novel in my study when suddenly I heard a womans fierce scream coming from my neighbors house. Whats happening? I closed the book, locked the door and hurried near.It was my neighbors wife!I rushed in without hesitation.Pacing anxiously hither and thither in the sitting room was my neighbor,who,seeing me come in,was so shocked that he cried to me in wild voice, No!You cant come in!Out upon you!,trying to push me out. I kicked open the door of the room from which the scream came and was greatly astounded at what I had seen.In the middle of the room was kneeling a witch muttering something,her eyes closed and hands folded.In front of her rested a table,on which there was a bowl of rice with three chopsticks inserted in it. Next to the wall stood the bed on which was struggling the wife,her face as white as a piece of chalk.---She was giving birth to a baby and obviously,had great difficulty with parturition.Her mother-in-law stood by,desirous to help her but not knowing what to do.

You should take her to hospital!Right now!I turned back and shouted to my neighbor.

Shut up!he snarled to me, Out!

There was no time left.I ran home and phoned my cousin,telling him in brief what was happening.Soon,he came driving his agrimotor. Now the poor wife was already unconscious, her blood having incarnadined the bedsheet. The husband seemed to have realized the urgency and with his help,my cousin and I put his wife on the agrimotor and drove to the hospital at full speed.

The wife was sent to the operation room the moment we reached the hospital,leaving us waiting impatiently outside.After what had seemed a long century,the door opened and a nurse came out,her face serious and solemn.

I regret to tell you that the baby was born dead,said the nurse to my neighbor, Only if you had sent your wife here half an hour earlier!

The man gave a frantic scream, What?!

Like a wounded beast,he stamped with fury and,summoning all his powers,showered his heavy fists on me,roaring hysterically, You!Its you!You have brought such misfortune to my family!I soon became black and blue and lost my consciousness.When I came to myself,I found myself lying in hospital.Mother was sitting beside me,tears rolling in her red eyes.

Words pale before my grief.The horrible moans of the wife,the overwhelming fists of the husband,the shocking words of the nurse and the worried eyes of my mother have been engraved in my heart and,perhaps,will never be erased from my memory.

it's great to read

it's great to read your so many replies at one breath. It took me some time to read them.Anyway I like reading your messages so much.
Why haven't we seen joyfulbird so long? I stayed in Chengdu for four days before I flew to Tibet on the 12th of July. are you busy with your work?
To freedream, I 'm sure you have got a wonderful job in which you can practise your English as much as possible. I even guess that you are a guide. I am wondering why itwas10:00 at night in the place you were staying while it was 4:30am in Chengdu? Are you working abroad?
Yunnan Province is full of wonderful tourist spots. I went to Kuningming to enjoy the Stone Forest, I lingered out in Dali Old Town and was surprised to see many foreigners drinking and talking there. I also enjoyed LIJiang Old town's amazing night views. They were really touristy and marvellous. I loved it so much that I hoped i could stay a few more days in the unique hotel which is made of wood with wonderfuyl carving and sculptures. I went to Shaglira. It's a bit high altitude. My daughter lost conciousness in a big round glass-house which sold some rare special chinese medicine.But we had a great time in the temples where we saw and turned the biggest 转经筒 in the world. Next time I hope I can go to Xishuangbanna, the south of Yunnan Province. I hope my dream can come true soon.
To jeff, I'm sure you are a brilliant kid. I know you keep readin English everymorning this is quite a good way to improve your oral english. I admire your persistence so much. Keep up your good work I'm sure you'll make it soon. YOu know many famous persons who are very good at English succeed by keeping reading loudly, such as the famous founder of Crazy English, Liyang. So never give up.
I'll back to my work at the end of this August. I'll return home by way of Shanghai. It's not convenient for me to get 0n line here, but I'll be here as soon as possible.
Thank freedream, I'm getting accustomed to the life here after half a month's time. but I'll try some ginger tea. I think it will make me feel much better. Thanks.
See you my friends. come here and chat ; I love reading your replies, I like chatting with you. Let's keep talking

And you say I have changed

And you say I have changed!
But am I the only one to blame?

I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here right beside me.

I was naïve, I made you my destiny
But you and me, it wasn’t meant to be.

Just being with you made my day,
So serene, so beautiful, these memories will forever stay.

You broke my heart, ripped it to pieces
I wasn’t your desire, but you were my very existence

With tears gushing sown, I screamed “stay, don’t go”
“There is so much to me, you just don’t know”

But you walked away until you were gone,
But I stood right there, I couldn’t move on…

How can I forget my only love to love thee
How can I move on when my heart isn’t with me

Now you’re back telling me you were wrong
But reality is different; this is not where you belong

Things aren’t the way they were before,
I am not me anymore

While you moved on, I stood right there
To let go off you, I couldn’t dare

I love you still, but I’ve lost all my drive
I’m barely breathing – no longer alive

So off you go, so perfectly
Your kind of person, I wish I could be…

And you wonder I have changed
But I am not the one to blame…

Gladiolas Of A Wider

I can listen to the wind for hours and it never
Haunts me;
It is soft and careless as a mother drinking in her rays;
Busting like a hound dog or a retarded gumshoe
Through the lees of slash pine trees:
And the joggers fall through it like stick-legged demons,
And when they cut their knees and taste
Their wounds, they remember things that now live swooning
Like fattened doves into other houses:
In strange boxes which throb with warmth, like wombs
Of whales in furnaces,
And the creatures across the earth move in similar details;
And I think all of this is nice, the zoetrope of the next day’s
Casual mammals,
Floating like in a tub of plastic trinkets that the greatest
Harlot of them all enjoys herself,
Dabbing her pits like Siamese orchards: How she positions us,
And how we enjoy our defeats of victory anyways-
Rising up and shooting down according to her drunken will,
Resurrected, mouthing off, and accumulating in our fraternities
As she bathes, nippled, gladiolas of a larger world until she
Rises nude for an even greater sort of game,
Leaving us emptied of her will.

every dear friend!

hi,everyone!today is a fine day.but i get up a little late than usual.that cannot affect my reading in the moning.when i get to the "english square",i can`t help reading crazily.at the same time ,i feel that i have been in another world.blurting out!just like liyang has said ,open your mouth and read english crazily.we should have a passion to read english and try to speak to somebody in english.try our best to think everything in english.we also should have a crazy spirit.keep on,dear friends! to anine:i`m so happy i can see your messsages every day.i konw you may be very busy to your work.but i hope you can come to our forum often. whenever and wherever you are,don`t foget to learn english.don`t care other`s strange eyes,do yourself.i`m sure you can make a rapid progress in your english. to freedreaam:you konw,i`m very envy you.Switzerland is a place i`m dreaming for.i`m not sure if i have a chance to go to.you konw it is really a chanllenge forme to achieve it.but i don`t give it up.i will sieze every chance to achieve my dream.have a good day,every dear friend!